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Dealing with Depression - le
this is a great site ! :):):):):) I have been
suffering from severe depression, and came across this
site while surfing, looking for a way up, and you helped
immensely ! :) I am currently going through a divorce. my
16 year old dropped out of school. my 20 year old left to
move in with her boyfriend, and I have been informed that
my job is moving to another state, so I am looking for a
job. ( as if any one would hire me in my state of mind!)
thanks for the special thoughts and lift I needed to make
it through another day or two.
From: Bernd
Thanks for your kind words. I’m discovering more
and more about my own depression, and I’m dismayed
by how little information and awareness there still is of
this in the medical and psychological fields. I think
we’re pretty much still all pioneers in trying to
find answers. The only thing I can hope for is that
there’s some kind of other life beyond this, where I
can say “ah ha! We’ve finally got a handle on
this!” No harm in hoping, is there?:)
From: anonymous
This is an ultimate book I have come across. It has
answers to all my questions. This book has pointed out to
me that it is me that the problem exists and not my
loving husband. It has motivated me to change myself and
give all the love and happiness to my husband. All these
days I have been very possessive. And hence this used to
come out in the form of anger towards my husband. But
after reading this book I definitely have got a direction
towards changing myself. I am very thankful for putting
such an exclusive edition on the internet and giving
people free access to it to help them change their lives.
From: Petunia
I am finding a great deal of meditative input from the
readings. Are these thoughts that you have been inspired
to write or do you use a resource other than life
experience?
From: Bernd
All of the above, but mostly life experience. Thanks
for your kind comments.
From: tal
I just wanted to let you know how much I appreciate
this web site. I found it at a time when I really needed
to learn about relationships. I was feeling lost in my
relationship and my self-confidence was pretty low. Your
site has taught me so much about myself and about what
relationships should be like. I also love the fact that
you incorporate Christian values. I can't wait to learn
more from you. Thank you.
From: Grateful
Thank you. I was feeling pouty and unloved today. It's
raining, cold, and with my history of major depression,
intellectually I know that it's a feeling not to be
trusted. Still, I needed some solace, and your website
helped. A lot.
I read your entry for January 8th about pain, and it
reminded me of something on the radio today that struck
me. An actor appearing in a local production of
"Shadowlands" was being interviewed, and at the
end of the interview he gave the opening monologue from
the play, in which C.S. Lewis tries to provide an
explanation for suffering. I can't remember the exact
wording, but I assimilated it as roughly...
Hunger exists to remind us to eat. If we didn't
hunger, we would complacently starve our bodies.
Suffering keeps us from starving our souls. It keeps us
questing for God and becoming true lovers of our fellow
man. As a footnote, I'd add that it keeps us learning how
to love our SO's. At any rate, thanks again.
From: jasal
The daily thoughts help me to understand how to live
life one day at a time. I cannot be happy with my S.O.
until I am happy with being ME!! The daily thoughts are
my reality check for this sometimes crazy world we live
in.
From: Claudia
I just finished reading the page for July 18. How true
these words rang in my soul as I contemplated the many
affects that occur in my emotional realm!!!! A bit of
self contemplation always reveals to me the places in my
own life that are sapping away my serenity and joy. This
process of recovery has been and continues to be an
amazing journey into self awareness. It is, I am finding,
only in knowing myself that I can truly begin to allow
others to know me and to open myself to the knowing of
others. It has made my life so much easier as I have
given control to that Higher Power which has always been
available to me. It has been pride and fear that have
kept me from real love.
I wanted to share with you both some personal thoughts
that have recently come to my awareness. I have sent a
great deal of my adult life reacting to people and
situations from a place of emotional triggers that have
more to do with my inner injured child than my adult,
growing self. Unless I care about myself enough to allow
time for quiet reflection and soul connection I spin in
emotional unrest and turmoil. The more days of self love
that I accumulate the less time I am spending in
distress. Those times of distress still come however and
I am actually beginning to understand that since I am no
longer living in a world of black and white or all or
nothing, at no time am I a failure or have I reverted to
pre-recovery state. I remember being my own worst enemy
and I remember the beginnings of listening to the words
that I spoke in my own mind concerning my worth and
value. I was truly horrified in the beginning to hear how
I treated myself. It wasn't easy at first to challenge
the old stuff but opening my heart to the love offered
through others in recovery and allowing enough space in
my armor of protection for my Higher Power to begin to
speak the words of love and belief that He had been
trying to grant me for so long began to melt the barriers
from my soul. I am delighted to be on this journey and in
this place, for the most part, even when the experiences
are hard to understand at the moment. I am learning that
all that passes my way really does have purpose and often
that purpose is revealed to me. Although this awareness
usually comes in hindsight, I have had enough experiences
in the last 8 1/2 years of love to build my faith and
keep me coming back for more.
I want to share with you my most recent awareness and
how it has impacted my steps forward. As you know, I am
in the middle of divorce proceedings. My spouse is in a
state of mental deterioration yet refuses to see or
acknowledge what is happening in his world and the world
of those around him in his illness. These past 8 years
since my recovery began, we have grown further and
further apart, now truly to the place of no return. I can
honestly say that I did everything I could to give
substance to our marriage but because of whatever demons
he carries in his mind and soul he chose not to
participate in growth and love. I cannot change these
things and am at the place of acceptance with what I am
now experiencing. Acceptance however does not mean that
the experience is always easy. I face surgery this
afternoon for a D and C and laporoscopy. I was horrified
when I realized that in the recesses of my mind I was
hoping to go under anesthesia and not wake up. As I
contemplated the emotions that brought me to this place I
realized that I was attempting to "do this on my
own" and forgetting the beautiful and loving network
of support that has been given to me. The intense reality
of the difficulty of this experience was taking the place
of the faith and trust that I have been gifted with
through healing. I once again turn myself over to the
power of love and hope and wish to share with you the
gratitude that I feel for your part in my wholeness of
spirit. The words and love that you have shared give me
strength and courage. The honesty spoken by the people,
who are so like me, that respond to the postings help me
to realize that I am only as alone as I choose to be.
Today I choose to be part of this larger family that God
has provided and I rebuke the spirit of darkness that
would have me give up the beauty of love for the horror
of separateness. Thank you for loving.
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