dealing with the guilt

dealing with the guilt ----- From: Betty - Date: 04 Nov 1997

Hi again......i have been trying to make it day by day....some times it is okay....and others it is so hard. It is hard to deal with theguilt of cheating on my husband.....not just cheating on him..but i feel like i cheated onmy kids also. I feel like he is drifting away. It has been almost 6 weeks since it happened....and we hardly talk. he has been very good about it i think ......he will get off work so i can go to the dr. appts and stuff like that.. it is hard when it gets to him though. everything i do or he does for me makes me feel guilty.....i don't know how this marraige will ever be put back togehter ......we went to the chaplain and he wanted us to take some kind of test so that he knows where to start.....i guess it gets sent to minn. or something and then 10 days later he scedules seesions.....but my husband hasnt taken it.......i dont know what to do anymore........