Re: dealing with the guilt

Re: dealing with the guilt ----- From: betty - Date: 05 Nov 1997

Hi....i guess it has been harder to deal with because there are so manyissues that i and we have been dealing with.....me personally with the fear of std's.....of having given it to my kids...of the depression i am going thru....the suicidal thougts i had a few weeks ago....the fear....the guilt .....and hurting them so badly. i want to take it all away from them and want them to be happy again. i don't feel motherly anymore because of how i have been feeling about myself...........it hurts so bad to see them in pain that i have caused.....i want us to be happy again but alot of times i dont see it.......i was diagnosed as being depressed and i can't even try to look my best so i know it is hard for him to look at me.......