Re: dealing with the guilt

Re: dealing with the guilt ----- From: Betty - Date: 05 Nov 1997

Thanx Kim....i would like that....a prayer request...and i know you know what i have been going thru. I wish i could get over the guilt but for some reason ....this thing is really torturing me inside....it has torn me apart so much....i have never felt this guilty about anything in my life and can't figure out why this time. Sometimes i wish i never told my husband and at least have spared him the pain....so much guilt...the guilt of doing it....the guilt of letting myself do something stupid....when i usually make good choices....the guilt of telling him....the guilt of hurting the family...especially being a woman....it makes it harder....soooooo much guilt......the psyc. prescirbed paxil...i don't know if it is an anitdepressent....she says it works on the seratonin in your brain....she said some of this is lefover postpartum depression and this built on top of it. alls i know is that i am constantly living in the past......of wishing all of this will go away and it can't. i get so sad when peoples and my friends lives go on and they are so happy and mine is miserable..my daughter wants to do and go to all these places and we can't right now....so that guilt is there to. my husband has been great.....he will come home early to watch the kids so i can go to these appt.s even though he is suffering.....i miss him so much...........