Re: Just want to say....

Re: Just want to say.... ----- From: Bugga - Date: 06 Dec 1997

I was happy to see your post this morning. I also love animals, especially cats. I just lost two about a month ago. They were just 10 weeks old. Sick from the beginning. Many vet visits, 24-hour care and several hundred dollars did nothing but prolong the inevitable. I read somewhere you may be a Scorpio too. No wonder we "mirror". I am starting to see what that term means. Never heard it before. It's funny how we get what we need when we need it but don't realize it at the time.

Every day for the last several days I have woke up with a new realization. Today it was that I don't think I have an identity without my kids. My son has been gone for nine days now. He's at my sister's house. This is good though, I'd love to be there too at times. I feel bad about WHY he felt he needed to leave home, but has his life stopped? Hell no. All the cousins got together last night along with my sons's girlfriend and they went down to Balboa Park for the annual Christmas on the Prado and Singing Christmas Tree. I thought I owned that tradition. He's doing what he needs to do. He's still working both jobs like usual. My daughter is going to Sixth-Grade Camp Monday. I think I'm in the early stages of Empty Nest Syndrome. I don't know. REALLY don't. I know I have ZERO Christmas Spirit this year. Didn't have it before my son left either. Usually, and every year for the last seven years, I decorate the house inside and out. I've even won many contests for it. This year I don't care. I don't know why. I know it doesn't have anything to do with calling attention to the fact I have not decorated. That was my first thought. I'll figure it out. I feel much better today than I have all week.

Again, I was happy to read your post. It was so uplifting. I really value everything we all share even if it's a kick in the butt. I still think your light shines just as brightly as it always has. You have a lot to offer and obviously others see it too.

Lots of Love and a kiss on the forehead!! Bugga