For Broccoli's Sake To Lynda

For Broccoli's Sake To Lynda ----- From: Bugga - Date: 07 Dec 1997

Well, the least I can do is say thanks for taking the time to share after such a long day. On the terms my son chose to leave, it somehow doesn't seem right that I don't try to show him a blade of grass under a different light. I've e-mailed back & forth with him, but he's so angry and in big letters he says I DON'T CARE. I know he's more mad at hubby than me. I haven't given up though. I think my not kicking hubby out for sonny boy's sake alone is good because of the passive-aggressive ways we have with each other. I have issues with hubby and they may not resolve. But If I were to split with him, the cycle of controlling each other (son and I) may not end.

It's in the right direction though. Fortunately, I love broccoli. But I love chocolate cake too. Sonny boy doesn't like the fact I'm choosing broccoli over chocolate cake because his mom gave him the best recipe for it and told him for years it had all the vitamins he needed. I guess it's best I be the one to break the news instead of others in the future who may say he needs to detach from me to get healthy. But he's just a baby. Devastation was a good descriptive word you used and that's what I've felt like.

I'm motivated by seeing both of you in recovery. Hubby is once again going to try therapy. This time with no addiction to a substance. I hope he does well with it.

Again, thanks for sharing. It means a lot.

((( )))s Bugga