Re: Turtle on the Snail's Back

Re: Turtle on the Snail's Back ----- From: wolfie - Date: 17 Dec 1997

That was a beautiful post Bernd.

bugga, I just wanted to add that when I did surrender my first and second time it was actually quite quite quite scary - you see, I was and can be a control freak so Letting GO and Letting God was pretty frightening for me. However, years prior (my FIRST attempt at sobriety) I I saw and witnessed and experienced the faith of God. In other words, I asked for the obsession to be taken away, and it was. THat wasn't the time I quit drinking for good, however, BUT the seed had been planted.

I guess it is called faith. It was also, for ME, getting to a point in which I was in enough PAIN (severe) that In a sense I had no choice. It was either the way of Spirit or it was internal hell. So when I surrendered, it was scary - very - but I had nothing to lose. I was in enough pain to say - enough. However, I don't feel we all need to GET to that point of pain - however, for me, it was obviously what I needed to finally "wake me up."

So it is scary and a frightening time for you - I understand this - I do. But it IS a letting Go and Trusting that there Is this Greater Power (who I chose to call my higher self) that LOVES YOU SO SO SO SO SO SO much no MATTER what you have done - who only wants your Greatest happiness - who wants you to FLY - who wants you to experience all of the GOOD this universe has in store for you and it is WAITING for you.

So, just practice. You can also talk to God like you would a friend. In other words, you can say something like this: God, you know I feel very strange in doing this - I want to let Go for you to lead me - I want to surrender to YOU to show me the way and grant me everything I need to become all I am meant to be - I really do but I feel strange. I have some sort of block. Just know that I am WILLING - okay God.

Trust me on this Bugga, you will be lead - I have never been more sure about anything. You will be led. You already are.

It is the same with this forgiveness stuff - when I want to forgive but don't know how - I say : GOD, I AM WILLING - please show me how. etc. etc. etc.

I am with you my dear friend, every step of the way.

Love to you and gentle hugs, kim