))LOVE WITHOUT LOVE(( ----- From: ))sk(( - Date: 17 Dec 1997

OK - - my turn again!

I just finished a post (LA) I think - where some emotive parts kinda bubbled up - How and WHY do we seek LOVE from those that don't seem to want to return that LOVE - we crave that love from the unlovable - (???))) So much of the time I just want my Dad, or others that have hurt me to say - "Im sorry, I do love you, I didnt mean to hurt you - you ARE lovable" Why continue to beat yourself up for this unatainable LOVE???? I know - the mirror thing - right (this is new, and like bugga - I feel the need for someone to drill a hole and pour this stuff in!! BUT I realize this will take time - still UNDERSTANDING a little may help - again!

ANd what about - the repeating of the relationship - in an attempt to "fix" the damaged old relationship?? My marraige ended so horribly in ALOT of anger - mostly directed at myself - for not being ready and steping into something I felt I wasn't ready for! DO we actually seek out others - subconsciensly - to step in and mirror this old hurt??? FORGIVE, sk FORGIVE!!

See now I beat myseslf up for not feeling like I can forgive - but it really is about forgving myself - FIRST??? WHy wont my BRAIN go to sleep??

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